The Clear Horizon

From oblivion of alcoholism into the light of sobriety

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  • No alcohol doesn‘t help. But alcohol would only make it worse

    First off, let’s identify a couple of statuses (do you write it that way?) about emotional balance: #1: In times of emotional balance, or if my basic mood has a quiet tone, there is nothing that would want me to think about having a drop of alcohol. It has become an automatism not to drink… Read more

  • Dogma is not faith is not truth

    This post is somewhat related to the “Hyperion Cantos” which I am still working through but also some questions I have been pondering on a couple of days (or is it weeks?) now. I guess one of the reasons I never put myself in the hands of the AA or the Blue Cross or other… Read more

  • When is one brand good and another bad? And what does identity have to do with it?

    We all need to relate to something. But the thing is, everyone has their own way to relate to something, right? I used to love Glen*** Scotch Single Malt (which, sometimes, I miss dearly). But why is that? Why do I still miss the taste and feel of a Glen*** Scotch Single Malt with a… Read more

  • The Bad Advisor is really Nyarlathotep

    Here is another practical example of how the work on Journaling RPG and incorporating it into short stories or – in this case my revelation came with – a ballad. The idea was to work with a different approach and I am still working on the visuals. At the moment, I only have some draft… Read more

  • Giving meaning to the eternal Horror that is called the cycle of life

    Have you ever watched the film Vivarium? No? Well, I would say it’s one of the most unsettling films I’ve ever seen. Here’s why and why it’s important for my voyage. It’s not a Lovecraftian film in the strict sense. But it has a lot of the implications of the insignificance of humans in the… Read more

  • Learning to love the Moment

    What’s keeping me sane, my self efficacy up and my soul stable? Correct. Good emotions and enough dopamine in a smooth and even distribution. Well, that’s the base line scenario to keep me in a mentally stable state. But, how to achieve it, broken down in terms of dealing with yesterday, today and tomorrow –… Read more

  • Cosmology, Science, Personal Belief and Politics

    Why does it even matter? Well, it matters, because the distinction and abiding by certain sets of rules or normative objective (or better: intersubjectively relevant) laws is what sets us apart from societies with superstition and the rule of blunt force. I guess we all can agree that we need a basic rule and law… Read more

  • Half a year sober. Whaddup next?

    I have written about some of the things earlier that would come along after half a year of my sobriety. Again, just like after stepping out of the Pink Cloud, I have the feeling of having proceeded to another level of dealing with my recovery. Which really is a good thing. Sometimes it feels like… Read more

  • My recovery is political after all…

    I try to be as little politcal as possible in this blog, yes. I will not blame political right or left, nor do I want to nameshame certain politicians or spread political views. But I would like to comment on certain developments, political and societal, which really tick me off in terms of having turned… Read more

  • Putting theoretical plans into Action – What is the Way?

    It’s always the same: You think you have closed a topic and then you try to clean up and find another loose end and you want to discard it. Upon picking it up, it unwinds an old and a new story… So, what happened: Well, actually it’s what happened before: I made up my mind… Read more