The Clear Horizon

From oblivion of alcoholism into the light of sobriety

sobriety

  • How Winter deceived me – or did it actually…?

    I can remember the times when I used to blame everything on anybody or everything that felt fit to be standing in my way of success: I blamed my job and the injustice inflicted to me by others, so I had a reason to drink. I blamed my bad mood on my wife and kids,… Read more

  • After half a year of cutting back and sobriety – Am I bulletproof yet?

    The longer I work on my sobriety, the more loose ends come up of which I sometimes have the feeling that it all is either too much to work on, or that it is too much I think I need to do to have a successful recovery. But is all that really necessary? A two… Read more

  • Being strict with sobriety but not with other addictive behaviour

    Something that has been on my mind for a while now is the question why it seems to be no bigger issue for me to deal with other habit loops and/or addictive behavior in a moderate and sensible way while with alcohol I can’t. I won’t get into too much detail for toxic habits and/or… Read more

  • Should we cry more? Cont‘d

    I finally mustered the courage to do it. So: Until next time, take one step at a time and don’t lose the faith in yourself. Read more

  • Why sobriety engagement is meaningful

    My first thought was: Great, I have enough time to redirect my energy I used with drinking into something useful: Let’s find an engagement to fill the gap. Well, yes. Partly true, but only partly. In the time of the Pink Cloud, that felt pretty straightforward and it had the shine of something to dive… Read more

  • Why being nasty sometimes feels very good

    Okay. Actually, the heading is pretty click-baity, but there is a certain truth in the statement which I wanted to elaborate on a bit. The situation was that I needed to make my way through a one way and a car blocked my way and the driver talked to the passengers who just exited the… Read more

  • While I am in the Rabbit hole, what else might be down here?

    Ok, back into the rabbit hole. I am not actually sure if I really want to dig that deep into the rabbit hole, since there might be aspects that I would rather have sleeping until the dusk of time. But since it is all about the “Hauptmeise” (main tit (the bird!!!), better translation would be:… Read more

  • Alcoholism is a spectrum. Here’s why.

    Yesterday I reflected on the question when an addiction is actually an addiction, and apart from the “objective” diagnosis you get from a doctor or therapist, it is mostly up to you to define and feel if you have an addiction. I was neither diagnosed nor had I a distinct conversation with people who told… Read more

  • Helping those in need when I was in need myself

    How was I able to help people in need, regarding disorders, family problems, domestic violence and substance abuse while I needed help myself getting off alcohol? I have been working in a social and education job all my job life. It alway was, s, in one or the other way, related to helping or supporting… Read more

  • Insights of hands free February, pt 1

    The first quarter of February has passed, and I am quite happy with my interim result. Although I had already deleted all of my Social Media accounts, it became still obvious, that taking out my smartphone on every occasion I felt a vibration resulted in a micro spike of happiness, and leaving the mobile phone… Read more