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Sometimes diving too deep into the Rabbit Hole has something in stock that’s really messing up and shaking the very foundations of my resilience systems. Not in terms of falling back into toxic habit loops or alcohol abuse, but something that keeps my psyche on its toes for longer than I would like to: Bad… Read more
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Indulging in music of my adolescence and my early grown up years still serves a very important function. And actually Cosmic Horror, Science Fiction, RPG and all that stuff serves the same function. Why is that so? Fundamentally, the “mobile imagery” comes back into play (cf. “My life is like a Mobile“): Every choice to… Read more
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This is a pretty personal note on an incident that just happened recently: My uncle died, and although he wasn’t that close to me and my grief has its frontiers, it has a couple of implications about my own finiteness of life. First of all, I am in a current state of reevaluating and restructuring… Read more
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I don’t know what it particularly is, maybe a drive towards high level activating activities to boost dopamine release, but I love to dive into controversial discussions. There have been a lot of things passing through my system during times of teaching and working as a social worker, at the same time when I was… Read more
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Keeping up the energy to get going is pretty stressful. I am now beginning to realize that it’s not simply about building up too many good habits and trying to do too many “good things” at once. I have a more fundamental problem right now, and that is something I dreaded in a long time:… Read more
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If people asked me what the perfect job was for me… …30 years ago: I would have said – programmer! I can indulge in nerdy stuff, be a tech-guy (following in the footsteps of my father being into technology and craftsmanship) and overcome my feelings of maths ineptitude. Result: Fail – I would have had… Read more
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What’s keeping me sane, my self efficacy up and my soul stable? Correct. Good emotions and enough dopamine in a smooth and even distribution. Well, that’s the base line scenario to keep me in a mentally stable state. But, how to achieve it, broken down in terms of dealing with yesterday, today and tomorrow –… Read more
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Trigger Warning: This blog post deals partly with suicide. Send in the Clown… Can you remember Robin Williams? I think he was the poster boy for versatile actors, who perfectly incorporated tragic-comical characters as well as right out comedian roles. I would say he was one of the funniest actors of his time. And he… Read more
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Why does it even matter? Well, it matters, because the distinction and abiding by certain sets of rules or normative objective (or better: intersubjectively relevant) laws is what sets us apart from societies with superstition and the rule of blunt force. I guess we all can agree that we need a basic rule and law… Read more
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Life is the sum of our choices and experience. Yes, it is. But is everything we do based on our own choice? And if so, are all these choices right? Probably not. The question is, in how far does it matter? Who is to judge? Alcoholism is a spectrum. There is a broad range of… Read more
The Clear Horizon 