Something that has been on my mind for a while now is the question why it seems to be no bigger issue for me to deal with other habit loops and/or addictive behavior in a moderate and sensible way while with alcohol I can’t.

I won’t get into too much detail for toxic habits and/or habit loops or addictive behavior. I guess I will tackle these issues when they come up again, and then individually.

Today I want to focus on my absolute No-Gos, about abusive behavior that are a total taboo, which I banned from my life for a good reason:

While I can moderately consume certain food, or indulge in binge watching or other time consuming (sometimes maybe unhealthy choices), have a bad remorse it the following day or swear I won’t do it again, because it is too expensive or whatever, I can’t do so with cigarettes and booze. That is simply a fact.

While other addictive behavior is something I realized had me addicted, I was able to get away from and I am now able to consume it moderately (certain other substances, for instance, which I won’t discuss here), or gaming.

I can’t drink alcohol and smoke anymore, because I

1. would sooner than I could blink be back at the same substance amount as before
2. would consider being addicted once again and know I couldn’t stop.

And even if I knew I could drink moderately, I now have the absolute conviction that drinking alcohol or smoking would be like eating a big red brick. It would simply be very unhealthy and I would die from it in the long run.

It is not so much the addiction that bothers me so much. It is the substance, that is the bad thing about drinking.

Addictive behavior and bad habits are bad (duh), of course. But it’s the substance that is the killer. And whether or not I wouldn’t get addicted once again, stuffing a poisonous substance into my body is simply no option anymore!

Until next time, don’t lose the faith in yourself and take one step at a time.