The Clear Horizon

From oblivion of alcoholism into the light of sobriety

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  • Defeating self expectations, or self defeating expectations?

    Here we go again. Seeing the logo of my podcast host service alone pushes up stress levels. Why is that so? Well, it’s all about motivation and in turn over exaggerated expectations generated by it. The problem arising is a recurring pattern in ADHD, enough to make a Cosmic Horror short story out of (and… Read more

  • Learning to love the Moment

    What’s keeping me sane, my self efficacy up and my soul stable? Correct. Good emotions and enough dopamine in a smooth and even distribution. Well, that’s the base line scenario to keep me in a mentally stable state. But, how to achieve it, broken down in terms of dealing with yesterday, today and tomorrow –… Read more

  • Life: No matter what you do, it’s wrong. Where are borders?

    Life is the sum of our choices and experience. Yes, it is. But is everything we do based on our own choice? And if so, are all these choices right? Probably not. The question is, in how far does it matter? Who is to judge? Alcoholism is a spectrum. There is a broad range of… Read more

  • Do it only for 5 Minutes… Why overcoming the motivational obstacle is one of the biggest issue with Habits in ADHD

    Shall I really write today? Ok, but I’ll do it only for five minutes. This was exactly my thinking when I was typing today’s post. I was unmotivated like I wasn’t unmotivated in a long time. Maybe it has to do with the fact that I was pretty idle today and in the evening I… Read more

  • COVID and Alcohol – what boredom has to do with drinking

    It wasn’t the stress that made me drink more than before in the COVID – era. This is an interesting insight, because I always thought that I had a very stressful time during COVID. Yes, it was stressful. I had a lot of remote home schooling, I had shifts of emergency childcare at the school… Read more

  • extreme choices, extreme emotions – how to cope without a single drop of rum?

    Sometimes it’s hard to determine (in terms of heartfelt instances) if living in extremes was there before alcohol or the other way around: When I quit drinking, my hope was, a bit, to leave the life of dichotomous choices or emotional spikes and dips, a life of black-and-white thinking, whatever you may want to call… Read more

  • My life is like a mobile

    No…not like a phone. Well, sometimes maybe, but this is not what I mean. I mean the kind of kinetic art sculpture you can hang from a ceiling with dangling parts on different levels. And this is what my life is like. Actually, it is an image that we use a lot in systemic pedagogy… Read more

  • Why am I putting more effort into ADHD than Recovery? – It’s about the Core, stupid.

    Ok, this headline is of course addressed to myself, not you as a reader. Please, if you have taken offense, I must say sorry. Well, why AM I actually concerned about putting more effort into ADHD than Recovery? Well, I think the underlying problem is that ADHD tends to distract me from core problems to… Read more

  • I asked AI to help with ADHD – here’s what happened – Reframing project pt. 2

    Yes, this may induce a wave of rants to hear I use AI as means of therapying my ADHD, but I must say the results seem to yield some interesting results. I don’t think everything AI gives for an answer is feasible or even sensible, it is more a structure to help me along the… Read more

  • Putting Hyperfocus-Flow into action – A Reframing project, Pt. 1

    Now I have the opportunity to practice and see if my idea concerning the combination of hyperfocus and flow is a feasible method. Trigger warning: Parts of this post have to do with self optimization. The bottom line of this idea is that hyperfocus and flow share very similar traits in terms of feeling time… Read more