The Clear Horizon

From oblivion of alcoholism into the light of sobriety

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  • The Clear Horizon vs Cthulhu

    This is the project in which I want to incorporate dealing with Neurodiversity, Sobriety and Self Efficacy and short stories related to Cosmic Horror. It’s a project that is evolving and I am curious as how to this is going to unfold. Mind that it may be progressing or degressing deliberately, depending on how my… Read more

  • Defeating self expectations, or self defeating expectations?

    Here we go again. Seeing the logo of my podcast host service alone pushes up stress levels. Why is that so? Well, it’s all about motivation and in turn over exaggerated expectations generated by it. The problem arising is a recurring pattern in ADHD, enough to make a Cosmic Horror short story out of (and… Read more

  • mechanics of Journaling RPG and the subconscious processing of my alcoholism

    Yes, it’s cosmic horror again. I am just about to finish my first three short stories, and one is, I think, one of the more obvious processing of alcoholism. As I said, I use Cosmic Horror as a vehicle to tap into subconscious processes of my addiction, and in the case of the upcoming short… Read more

  • When is must can, and can must?

    Ok, we have basically four modes: WTF? Ok. Here goes: So, when is something must-can and when is it can-must in my case? A “must” becomes a “can”, or must-can, if I find a way to reframe the initial urgency or obligation into something that is becoming intriguing and appealing enough to get me into… Read more

  • Giving meaning to the eternal Horror that is called the cycle of life

    Have you ever watched the film Vivarium? No? Well, I would say it’s one of the most unsettling films I’ve ever seen. Here’s why and why it’s important for my voyage. It’s not a Lovecraftian film in the strict sense. But it has a lot of the implications of the insignificance of humans in the… Read more

  • A first attempt at cosmic horror sketching

    Why? Read the according Blog Post „Art therapy…“ The question that may arise is: why the rat thing Brown Jenkin? (From „Dreams in a Witch House“ by H.P. Lovecraft). I guess it is because it‘s one of my favorite Stories and this character is so purely evil and devastating in its own right, a perversion… Read more

  • A cul de sac – What now?

    Keeping up the energy to get going is pretty stressful. I am now beginning to realize that it’s not simply about building up too many good habits and trying to do too many “good things” at once. I have a more fundamental problem right now, and that is something I dreaded in a long time:… Read more

  • Clearing my horizon

    They say “pride comes before the fall” – Indeed it does… – at least a bit. As I wrote before, I sincerely need to shed old skin every once in a while and that is for a good reason: This is one of the things I have always had a problem with and since I… Read more

  • Total freedom to exploit my mind – the pros and cons of being a pedagogue

    If people asked me what the perfect job was for me… …30 years ago: I would have said – programmer! I can indulge in nerdy stuff, be a tech-guy (following in the footsteps of my father being into technology and craftsmanship) and overcome my feelings of maths ineptitude. Result: Fail – I would have had… Read more

  • Learning to love the Moment

    What’s keeping me sane, my self efficacy up and my soul stable? Correct. Good emotions and enough dopamine in a smooth and even distribution. Well, that’s the base line scenario to keep me in a mentally stable state. But, how to achieve it, broken down in terms of dealing with yesterday, today and tomorrow –… Read more