The Clear Horizon

From oblivion of alcoholism into the light of sobriety

writing

  • Next up: Impulse Control

    Ah, yes. Impulse control. One of the functions that I can rely on worst in my neurodivergence. There are a lot of issues where this is a severe obstacle in my daily life and routines. And most of it is due to the lack of dopamine and noradrenaline when you mist need it. Then overwhelm… Read more

  • Not healed yet

    It seems as if the summer season acts as some sort of filter or reset for certain habits, needs and routines in my life. If I have the same in winter, when the year closes, I don’t know. I think so, but the big filter is summer season. I guess it’s the rhythm that has… Read more

  • Confrontation and being confronted – The Middle of Things

    I love complicated headlines. What is it about? Well, I am a social worker and in my company we work with a concept called “confrontative pedagogy”, which in the end is nothing more than confronting clients with their responsibility and their actions but also with the resources and their potential to work out solutions for… Read more

  • My rules, my routines – why Self reliance is so important in neuro divergence

    There is an issue I have been pondering on for as long as I have had been working with youths and kids, and something that I can relate to personally: Self reliance and exterior influence in combination with task and problem solving. As neurodivergent folks, we all need, even more than other folks, a structure… Read more

  • Most disturbing personal horror, pt. 2 – is there a „deeper“ than rock bottom?

    I thought of writing this already in the last post. But it didn’t seem to really fit. In the end, I am going to write about it, anyways. I am just in the mood. Dealing with all these personal horrors I dealt with yesterday, I just realized, had been a really dreadful anxiety – reality… Read more

  • Most disturbing personal Horror

    Sometimes diving too deep into the Rabbit Hole has something in stock that’s really messing up and shaking the very foundations of my resilience systems. Not in terms of falling back into toxic habit loops or alcohol abuse, but something that keeps my psyche on its toes for longer than I would like to: Bad… Read more

  • The Bad Advisor is really Nyarlathotep

    Here is another practical example of how the work on Journaling RPG and incorporating it into short stories or – in this case my revelation came with – a ballad. The idea was to work with a different approach and I am still working on the visuals. At the moment, I only have some draft… Read more

  • Welcome to Innsmouth

    How could I dive practically deeper into self efficacy while at the same time utilize my love for Cosmic Horror in the most practical sense I can muster? Yes, practical hobbies, the solitude of nature and being alone with my dark and gloomy thoughts at dawn in a murky forest at a nameless, deep, dark… Read more

  • Another word on nostalgia – why old patterns and habits in a renewed appearance is a real support

    Indulging in music of my adolescence and my early grown up years still serves a very important function. And actually Cosmic Horror, Science Fiction, RPG and all that stuff serves the same function. Why is that so? Fundamentally, the “mobile imagery” comes back into play (cf. “My life is like a Mobile“): Every choice to… Read more

  • How the death of my uncle offers a quantum of solace

    This is a pretty personal note on an incident that just happened recently: My uncle died, and although he wasn’t that close to me and my grief has its frontiers, it has a couple of implications about my own finiteness of life. First of all, I am in a current state of reevaluating and restructuring… Read more