Yes, another overcomplicated headline and topic, but the longer I stay at the sea and the more time I find at the moment to dive into the works of Thomas Ligotti, my hyperfocus is feverishly working.

And then, today, I went to the beach, and it was the clearest horizon I saw in a long time. A very long time.

I have worked on the topic of the meaning of the Clear Horizon and what the process of pursuing it means.

THIS horizon in its clarity has a symbolic meaning and I will try to find a subconscious message – not necessarily in the realm of philosophical horror, but since I have been dealing with this topic for the time being at the sea I will use this trope anyways: So, if the old ones control the sea, the weather and mental stability, then the clear view today represents the moment of clarity in thought and the purity of my mental state.

But why did the Old Ones chose to have mercy on my mind and ratio?

I guess the deep insights in the last days are, finally, bearing fruit. I can start to sort things out and structure them, bring order into the chaos. This Clear Horizon today is the symbolic image of the way mark I wrote about a couple of days ago, and it gives me a breathing pause before the next phase of obscure and oblivious paths and forks in the road appear.

It is the symbol for the eye of the storm. I know it’s a pause, and I know it’s not over; the process is ever ongoing and the end will only come with my demise (well, that is a truly cosmic horror digression :P)

The takeaway and the truth in these tropes, symbols and images is, that I strongly rely on imagery and visualizations (not only imaginatively or virtually, but also to be found in the real world) in the course of my sobriety. And I think this is deeply human, from an anthropological perspective, since every culture has tried to find solace and guidance in the shapes in the clouds, the intestines of animals, the movement of the birds or bad omens in the sky. You name it.

I am not superstitious and I am not the esoteric type. Using imagery or symbolism suits my tendency towards “Kopfkino” (an idiomatic term in German (‘head cinema’) for vivid mental imagery), which helps me support and structure my system enormously well.

Until next time, keep up the faith in yourself and take one step at a time.