In the course of time, there may be certain posts or passages that seem to be very much not in line with the rest of my thoughts and insights.

Well, as I wrote before, these are complex times along the way to recovery. And since I am on the way deeper and deeper into the rabbit hole, I find out things about my life, my identity and my choices long ago and recently that make it a bit complicated to always keep track of what the whole journey will take me to.

I guess there are a lot of forks in the road, bends, loops, roundabouts, turnovers and so on, and in some cases a dead end will make me choose a different direction after returning to a last point of orientation. Plus, I am trying to grapple with many different aspects about my recovery at the same time and so I might pick up two or three loose ends at the same time and let one fall, while I am pursuing another.

So, a lot of repetitions are most probably on the way, but in these repetitions I might correct myself or create redundancies which may not always lead to a logic conclusion.

I wrote in the very beginning that I am trying to put into this blog what comes to mind, and my mind tends to be weird at times.

This brings me back to the very reason and point of this blog: It’s not so much about a linear progression of my sobriety or how my choices went in and came out of the system, but rather what is on my mind at the exact moment. So, it may have stringent and logical trains-of-thought in some phases, but it may be random and jumpy the next phase of my writing.

I see it like a log about a journey into uncharted territory in the mountains, where you need to take new routes, turn around and try out something new.

In the end, this log is not going to be the travel guide or the story of my journey. It is going to be a diary and a log book in the best sense of the word.

The travel guide or story of my journey will come later, when I have condensed and sorted the chaos.

I thank you lovely people for your curiosity and your patience. If you want, I will let you know when my memoir will be ready to be read in print.

Until then, keep up the faith in yourself and take one step at a time.