The Clear Horizon

From oblivion of alcoholism into the light of sobriety

  • Personal suffering boundaries and other people‘s advice

    Sometimes things are harder to endure than in other times. My personal suffering boundaries depend a lot on overwhelming and stressful life situations and lack of motivation, that’s for sure. In different modes and moods, I tend to react differently to things that are bugging me and stressing me out up to the point of… Read more

  • Giving meaning to an indifferent World – How to defy Nihilism

    Don’t get me wrong. I love Thomas Ligotti. I love him for his writing style, his slow pace horror that is lingering around for a long time and the thoughts his writing provokes in a very existential manner. But the things I love about Ligotti is exactly the things I despise and fear about him:… Read more

  • Mörk Borg

    Gaming and journaling has become an asset in my routines of thriving forward, reflecting, analyzing and finding meaning. Something I came across in my quest for a deeper understanding and confrontation of my system and the self effective way I can find meaningfulness in this life and system is a very interesting concept for a… Read more

  • Confrontation and being confronted – The Middle of Things

    I love complicated headlines. What is it about? Well, I am a social worker and in my company we work with a concept called “confrontative pedagogy”, which in the end is nothing more than confronting clients with their responsibility and their actions but also with the resources and their potential to work out solutions for… Read more

  • No alcohol doesn‘t help. But alcohol would only make it worse

    First off, let’s identify a couple of statuses (do you write it that way?) about emotional balance: #1: In times of emotional balance, or if my basic mood has a quiet tone, there is nothing that would want me to think about having a drop of alcohol. It has become an automatism not to drink… Read more

  • I’m a cultist now

    This is, of course misleading and is maybe a bit click-baity for some, repulsing to others. What stands behind that? Well, on my journey along, and diving deep into, voids, chasms, roads, paths towards a clear horizon, philosophical questions and a meaningful life have become more important than simply working on aspects of my sobriety,… Read more

  • 8 months, what’s up next?

    I have long been considering and pondering my sobriety. A lot has happened in these 8 months since I have quit drinking, and a many habitual changes have come and go. I will not go into the deeper detail, you can read this in the posts of the past. I have, however, come to another… Read more

  • My rules, my routines – why Self reliance is so important in neuro divergence

    There is an issue I have been pondering on for as long as I have had been working with youths and kids, and something that I can relate to personally: Self reliance and exterior influence in combination with task and problem solving. As neurodivergent folks, we all need, even more than other folks, a structure… Read more

  • Dogma is not faith is not truth

    This post is somewhat related to the “Hyperion Cantos” which I am still working through but also some questions I have been pondering on a couple of days (or is it weeks?) now. I guess one of the reasons I never put myself in the hands of the AA or the Blue Cross or other… Read more

  • Interview in German on a Sobriety Podcast

    For those of you German speaking Folks: I was interviewed by a German Podcast called Aufsturz. Here‘s a link: https://podcasts.apple.com/de/podcast/aufsturz/id1753453402?i=1000771422542 Read more