The Clear Horizon

From oblivion of alcoholism into the light of sobriety

horror

  • mechanics of Journaling RPG and the subconscious processing of my alcoholism

    Yes, it’s cosmic horror again. I am just about to finish my first three short stories, and one is, I think, one of the more obvious processing of alcoholism. As I said, I use Cosmic Horror as a vehicle to tap into subconscious processes of my addiction, and in the case of the upcoming short… Read more

  • Depression, the Clown and Cosmic Horror

    Trigger Warning: This blog post deals partly with suicide. Send in the Clown… Can you remember Robin Williams? I think he was the poster boy for versatile actors, who perfectly incorporated tragic-comical characters as well as right out comedian roles. I would say he was one of the funniest actors of his time. And he… Read more

  • Maintaining the Equilibrium – Avoiding the Void of Madness

    Like I wrote before, finding an equilibrium is a very important goal on the way to the Clear Horizon. It’s a walk on the razor’s edge, holding the balance line of emotions is like a wild ride on the waves and over-exaggeration of certain habits and activities is turning everything askew. Well, how does Cosmic… Read more

  • I am not a Lovecraftian investigator, or am I…?

    Ok. Obviously I am not in reality a lone space farer in the merciless expanse of the Universe, nor am I a psychic detective who exposes supernatural beings, nor an investigator drowning in his whiskey glass over nightmarish madness encountered lurking in the dark. Do I want to be one? Probably not. So, why is… Read more

  • Space Horror isn‘t necessarily Cosmic Horror. – Here’s why and why it matters

    Boy, I really need to have an eye on myself not getting actually consumed by the topic which is currently my navigational compass. I just saw a Cosmic Horror film that just ticks off every single characteristic of what makes a film or story Cosmic Horror. And that brings me to the question: When is… Read more

  • A cycle ending, but the Horror goes on…?

    A week at the sea has ended and I am back in domestic territory. Funny thing: After a perfectly clear horizon yesterday giving me the symbolic anchor of a time to breathe, today the weather hailed us with snow and wind. As if the Universe wanted to tell me something… No, joke aside. Of course… Read more

  • Horror RPG Journaling and the practical use of fiction in mental health remedy

    I think I have reached another waymark in the process of my recovery, and this time it seems to be a more complex one. My stay at the sea has condensed a couple of interesting thoughts regarding cosmic horror, philosophical horror, the disorders in my individual system as well as the self awareness and what… Read more

  • The sea, insignificance and the healing touch of philosophical Horror

    My mind normally hates idleness, because it forces thoughts into my mind that may spiral out of control. I discussed that earlier. But being at the sea and finding solace in the sublime and infinity of the horizon gives my mind rest to find productivity in idleness: Ever heard of Thomas Ligotti? No? Well, you… Read more

  • What does Cthulhu have to do with sobriety…? – or: The destructive philosophy of Cosmic Horror as paradoxical salvation

    Wow. That sounds complicated, doesn’t it… Yes, this is the result of my mind racing through and combining seemingly non-sensical approaches to something that has a probable sensible and meaningful outcome. How did it come to pass? Well, I had a lot of time to think about deconstructing and recombining different thinking patterns and mindsets… Read more

  • Horror films and Horror rpg deep dive

    This is something a couple of people in my environment find awkward, puzzling or disturbing that I have such a big issue with horror films and horror games. My wife always asks me how I can actually watch so many horror films without cracking up, taking into consideration that I have a diagnosed anxiety disorder… Read more