Good habits is what makes up a good, successful life. I think… I thought.

Well, yes. It’s true. But bear in mind the proverb by Paracelsus: The dose makes the poison.

When I was in the Pink Cloud I made a had a lot of good intentions I wanted to implement in my life. I had sheer endless energy, it seemed.

As soon as the Pink Cloud disappeared or started vanishing, I got the feeling I wasn’t living up to what I would possibly able to do. So I got into a remorse loop that I wasn’t good enough and that all I was looking for would crumble to pieces.

Luckily enough, I soon realized that I could break out of this loop by visualising my goals and how I wanted to achieve them. That was the point I got to monitor my procrastination habits and my tendencies to make big plans I would never be able to realistically implement without diving into another loop of addiction or maladaptive coping strategies.

I reduced, I reflected, I made priorities. I am still far from a perfectly balance plan for my habits, but I am getting there, step by step.

And I guess that’s today’s takeaway: I will probably never perfectionize my plans and intentions in a well balance scheme. But what I can do is, step by step, improve and learn from my failures. Expecially by accepting that I am not flawless and that perfectionism leads anywhere but success.

I will have to learn patience with myself and my improvements. But that, then is the essence of my life: Learning, failing, getting up, having success, failing again, improving, learning. In any arbitrary sequence. Life is nothing to be planned in detail. It is about accepting the unforseeable and dealing with it. No perfect habit plan or life plan can compensate for that.

Until next time, take one step at a time and keep up the faith in yourself.