Interestingly, I have saved a post draft with his headline for a completely different topic weeks ago. That nicely shows me after a longer time of dealing with different topics, how processes, ideas and, yes, mindsets change.

It is easier with the right mindset.

Now, I will use this post to get into two aspects:

1. “Right” mindsets as being something temporarily, justifying the approach that the way is more important than the goal
2. The “right” mindset at the moment seems to me to be the aspect of being totally transparent to people in my system about my ADHD, anxiety disorder and depression, and my recovery respectively.

Yes, I have written about both aspects before and yes, I have reflected a lot on both issues.

But since blog is all about a focus on how I feel right now, it feels fit to go into slow motion detail focus regarding both aspects.

The “right” mindset of being something temporarily

“Don’t quote me the sh*t I said yesterday” sounds like something a politician might say.. But there is a truth behind it that is more truthful than most things politicians would admit. A mindset is something that is, like the development of my personality, more or less something that is only a snapshot of the present in a development, a way mark on the path of recovery. So, as long as the mindset feels right, I follow this path until I see the next direction sign on a way mark and then I check and decide if the mindset is still correct or needs to be adjusted. Keeping this process dynamic seems to yield the best results for me. I don’t need to change everything from the bottom up, but some tweaks to the system may yield great success. So, the headline is correct in my mind, because if the mindset is the wrong one, I will find it difficult to find the right path to follow along the way.

The right mindset about being totally transparent

Today I talked to friends and family about my ADHD diagnosis, and the relief couldn’t be greater. There is no stigmatization and bad talk behind my back about these things, and even if it were so, I wouldn’t give a damn. There is no reaction that would gnarl on my self esteem or my masculinity or my identity. It feels completely fit to talk about it and it finally feels like it is something belonging to me. I felt awkward about inadequacies and insufficiencies, but as I see it now, being unconcentrated, a bad student, impulsive, anxious, all that stuff feels like I could give it a home because the ADHD diagnosis feels a lot like a long search for an answer that gives my journey a new impetus. It is no final insight. It is the beginning of another chapter on my journey, but for the first time since leaving the Pink Cloud, the dealing with my emotional state feels far less disoriented.

Staying in the flow of dynamics is a good feeling, because I feel like the direction is right, but I have the freedom to choose different forks in the road to follow the same path: Towards a Clear Horizon.

Until next time, keep up the faith in yourself and take one step (in the right direction) at a time