The Clear Horizon

From oblivion of alcoholism into the light of sobriety

adhd

  • Anxiety, ADHD, alcohol, the prefrontal cortex, learning and the lizard Mode

    Are you familiar with the lizard mode? It is a concept introduced by one of my anti-aggression-coaches. No, not because I was aggressive, but it was a seminar about how to deal with aggressive behavior in youths. It is basically saying that once you are emotionally activated in such a way that all your rationale… Read more

  • Next up: Impulse Control

    Ah, yes. Impulse control. One of the functions that I can rely on worst in my neurodivergence. There are a lot of issues where this is a severe obstacle in my daily life and routines. And most of it is due to the lack of dopamine and noradrenaline when you mist need it. Then overwhelm… Read more

  • What if (a) I had no ADHD, (b) could rid myself of symptoms or (c) never had known about it?

    Long question, short answers? Possibly, since I want to start writing on a daily basis again. Not to build up reach, but to better sort out my ADHD and the correlation with substance abuse. So, let’s get into it. (a) Well, this one is obviously the most hard to answer and theoretical question at first… Read more

  • Figuring out motivation depletion and what helps – a deep dive (Kind of).

    I think I had been on this path earlier. But I also have written earlier, that I sometimes take up loose ends and closed cases, because the actual need may come to it or I have new insights. And since my ADHD brain is too impatient to roam through all my old posts, this is… Read more

  • Not healed yet

    It seems as if the summer season acts as some sort of filter or reset for certain habits, needs and routines in my life. If I have the same in winter, when the year closes, I don’t know. I think so, but the big filter is summer season. I guess it’s the rhythm that has… Read more

  • Defeating self expectations, or self defeating expectations?

    Here we go again. Seeing the logo of my podcast host service alone pushes up stress levels. Why is that so? Well, it’s all about motivation and in turn over exaggerated expectations generated by it. The problem arising is a recurring pattern in ADHD, enough to make a Cosmic Horror short story out of (and… Read more

  • extreme choices, extreme emotions – how to cope without a single drop of rum?

    Sometimes it’s hard to determine (in terms of heartfelt instances) if living in extremes was there before alcohol or the other way around: When I quit drinking, my hope was, a bit, to leave the life of dichotomous choices or emotional spikes and dips, a life of black-and-white thinking, whatever you may want to call… Read more

  • The Fast Forward Button

    Fast For…what? Those of you familiar with the notion “cassette player”, “VCR” or other mechano-audiovisual devices will remember a button which was called the Fast Forward Button. For those who have not grown up to use these relics of times long past: It was meant to give you the opportunity to quickly – or, fast… Read more

  • Why am I putting more effort into ADHD than Recovery? – It’s about the Core, stupid.

    Ok, this headline is of course addressed to myself, not you as a reader. Please, if you have taken offense, I must say sorry. Well, why AM I actually concerned about putting more effort into ADHD than Recovery? Well, I think the underlying problem is that ADHD tends to distract me from core problems to… Read more

  • I asked AI to help with ADHD – here’s what happened – Reframing project pt. 2

    Yes, this may induce a wave of rants to hear I use AI as means of therapying my ADHD, but I must say the results seem to yield some interesting results. I don’t think everything AI gives for an answer is feasible or even sensible, it is more a structure to help me along the… Read more