The Clear Horizon

From oblivion of alcoholism into the light of sobriety

adhd

  • Defeating self expectations, or self defeating expectations?

    Here we go again. Seeing the logo of my podcast host service alone pushes up stress levels. Why is that so? Well, it’s all about motivation and in turn over exaggerated expectations generated by it. The problem arising is a recurring pattern in ADHD, enough to make a Cosmic Horror short story out of (and… Read more

  • extreme choices, extreme emotions – how to cope without a single drop of rum?

    Sometimes it’s hard to determine (in terms of heartfelt instances) if living in extremes was there before alcohol or the other way around: When I quit drinking, my hope was, a bit, to leave the life of dichotomous choices or emotional spikes and dips, a life of black-and-white thinking, whatever you may want to call… Read more

  • The Fast Forward Button

    Fast For…what? Those of you familiar with the notion “cassette player”, “VCR” or other mechano-audiovisual devices will remember a button which was called the Fast Forward Button. For those who have not grown up to use these relics of times long past: It was meant to give you the opportunity to quickly – or, fast… Read more

  • Why am I putting more effort into ADHD than Recovery? – It’s about the Core, stupid.

    Ok, this headline is of course addressed to myself, not you as a reader. Please, if you have taken offense, I must say sorry. Well, why AM I actually concerned about putting more effort into ADHD than Recovery? Well, I think the underlying problem is that ADHD tends to distract me from core problems to… Read more

  • I asked AI to help with ADHD – here’s what happened – Reframing project pt. 2

    Yes, this may induce a wave of rants to hear I use AI as means of therapying my ADHD, but I must say the results seem to yield some interesting results. I don’t think everything AI gives for an answer is feasible or even sensible, it is more a structure to help me along the… Read more

  • Putting Hyperfocus-Flow into action – A Reframing project, Pt. 1

    Now I have the opportunity to practice and see if my idea concerning the combination of hyperfocus and flow is a feasible method. Trigger warning: Parts of this post have to do with self optimization. The bottom line of this idea is that hyperfocus and flow share very similar traits in terms of feeling time… Read more

  • Effectively utilizing ADHD – can I make a powerful weapon out of Hyperfocus and the RAS?

    I have now been diagnosed with ADHD for a week, and yesterday was the definite and final diagnosis result interview. If I am going into medication, more coaching, psycho education or whatever it will be, I don’t know as of now. But I know one thing for sure: I will be trying to find different… Read more

  • It’s official – I have ADHD. Is this a reason to cry or to celebrate?

    There are some situations in your life you long for to have clarity about, and then, when it happens, you are not quite sure what to make out of it. Make no mistake, I am really relieved to have finally a factual diagnosis. I only thought it would be clearer to me if it gave… Read more

  • Family, ADHD and Alcohol

    I wrote about family, I wrote about habits, I wrote about ADHD. But how does this impact my current state of mind regarding my journey to sobriety? Well, Today I am lying sick on my couch, not being able to do my sports or other activity that normally would regulate my mood and hormone levels… Read more