The Clear Horizon

From oblivion of alcoholism into the light of sobriety

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  • Half a Year!

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  • Trying to sound professional: The entropo-syntropic nucleus genesis

    This is the outcome of the try to combine my thoughts on a mental-health coaching method with AI to help me with a (pseudo-)scientific definition: The Entropo‑Syntropic Nucleus Genesis denotes a self‑directed, constructivist transformation process in which experiences are first opened entropically, fragmented, and detached from existing structures of meaning, in order to then be… Read more

  • Evidence for sustainable Self efficacy

    I have been pondering on this issue for a while now, and up until now, I could only get a grasp on self efficacy in terms of short lived response and reward (feeling good with a rush of dopamine and then slowly bounce back (ideally) into a state of balanced emotional state for a while).… Read more

  • I am not a Lovecraftian investigator, or am I…?

    Ok. Obviously I am not in reality a lone space farer in the merciless expanse of the Universe, nor am I a psychic detective who exposes supernatural beings, nor an investigator drowning in his whiskey glass over nightmarish madness encountered lurking in the dark. Do I want to be one? Probably not. So, why is… Read more

  • Space Horror isn‘t necessarily Cosmic Horror. – Here’s why and why it matters

    Boy, I really need to have an eye on myself not getting actually consumed by the topic which is currently my navigational compass. I just saw a Cosmic Horror film that just ticks off every single characteristic of what makes a film or story Cosmic Horror. And that brings me to the question: When is… Read more

  • A cycle ending, but the Horror goes on…?

    A week at the sea has ended and I am back in domestic territory. Funny thing: After a perfectly clear horizon yesterday giving me the symbolic anchor of a time to breathe, today the weather hailed us with snow and wind. As if the Universe wanted to tell me something… No, joke aside. Of course… Read more

  • The Clearest Horizon in a Long time: What do the old ones from the Deep try to Tell me? – The power of symbolism in Recovery

    Yes, another overcomplicated headline and topic, but the longer I stay at the sea and the more time I find at the moment to dive into the works of Thomas Ligotti, my hyperfocus is feverishly working. And then, today, I went to the beach, and it was the clearest horizon I saw in a long… Read more

  • Horror RPG Journaling and the practical use of fiction in mental health remedy

    I think I have reached another waymark in the process of my recovery, and this time it seems to be a more complex one. My stay at the sea has condensed a couple of interesting thoughts regarding cosmic horror, philosophical horror, the disorders in my individual system as well as the self awareness and what… Read more

  • The sea, insignificance and the healing touch of philosophical Horror

    My mind normally hates idleness, because it forces thoughts into my mind that may spiral out of control. I discussed that earlier. But being at the sea and finding solace in the sublime and infinity of the horizon gives my mind rest to find productivity in idleness: Ever heard of Thomas Ligotti? No? Well, you… Read more

  • The sea, feeling of infinity, and Cthulhu

    I promised to myself to get to the sea at least once a year. Interestingly, the sea has always delivered on the promise to grant me solace, the feeling of sublime and the feeling of infinity. This is nothing I want to comment too deeply upon. Only that by the sea everything becomes so perfectly… Read more