The Clear Horizon

From oblivion of alcoholism into the light of sobriety

life

  • Identity and actions … and habits

    “We are what we do.” or “We are what we live by.” What sounds a bit like some calendar truism has actually an actual truth in it., at least for me. In the end, we might adopt a version of what others see in us as the definition of our identity. But is this what… Read more

  • While I am in the Rabbit hole, what else might be down here?

    Ok, back into the rabbit hole. I am not actually sure if I really want to dig that deep into the rabbit hole, since there might be aspects that I would rather have sleeping until the dusk of time. But since it is all about the “Hauptmeise” (main tit (the bird!!!), better translation would be:… Read more

  • Diving deep into the Core – toxic friendship

    Yesterday it was about diving deeper into the rabbit hole and the things that are yet to be uncovered. I just found one major thing that I am not quite sure of yet, how much impact this had or still has. First of all, it has to do with puberty and my developmental state when… Read more

  • Insights of hands free February, pt 2

    The fading of the Pink Cloud and the time I am getting from my handsfree time comes with a couple of ups and downs, but essentially this is about diving deeper into the rabbit hole of Recovery. What do I mean with the ups? Well, a very important development right now are the insights I… Read more

  • Finding your own way – Or, the inherent power of “No”

    I may have touched upon this topic before, even more or less elaborate, but today is a day where this is more obvious to me than on other days, or at least obvious enough to share my thoughts here: Today we have a Carnival parade in our town, and the kids wanted badly to participate.… Read more

  • Why Body positivity matters

    I don’t mean exercising to look like a top athlete or a poster boy for Men’s Health. And, it’s not for the sake of feeling “manlier” than other men around me. It’s not about body shaming or externalizing on Social Media to compensate for bad self esteem. What I mean is for my own healthy… Read more

  • Substance abuse killed The Rock Star? – it’s the disorder, stupid! Or is it…?

    TRIGGER WARNING: The issue of siucide or suicidal tendencies is touched upon! Recently I heard something interesting about the Club 27 and the conversation lingered around the question if it was the substance that killed Amy Winehouse or that she simply couldn’t cope with the fame, so she spiraled down her vicious circle into oblivion.… Read more

  • Reward vs quick fix

    Will I never doom scroll again? Or have a beer? Or buy something stupid on Amazon? The answer is (in the correct order): Maybe, no, yes. Here’s why: Doom scrolling has nothing of worth to me in terms of a reward in terms of “Oh, I have had such a stressful day, I am going… Read more

  • The quick fix is not the problem – addiction is

    We all have this from time to time – indulging in little sins to please a craving. Be it chocolate, gaming, social media, buying something, a small treat – you name it. I think the problem is not pleasing a little craving once in a while. It’s a little dopamine spike that can sweeten your… Read more

  • Insights of hands free February, pt 1

    The first quarter of February has passed, and I am quite happy with my interim result. Although I had already deleted all of my Social Media accounts, it became still obvious, that taking out my smartphone on every occasion I felt a vibration resulted in a micro spike of happiness, and leaving the mobile phone… Read more