The Clear Horizon

From oblivion of alcoholism into the light of sobriety

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  • It’s official – I have ADHD. Is this a reason to cry or to celebrate?

    There are some situations in your life you long for to have clarity about, and then, when it happens, you are not quite sure what to make out of it. Make no mistake, I am really relieved to have finally a factual diagnosis. I only thought it would be clearer to me if it gave… Read more

  • Horror films and Horror rpg deep dive

    This is something a couple of people in my environment find awkward, puzzling or disturbing that I have such a big issue with horror films and horror games. My wife always asks me how I can actually watch so many horror films without cracking up, taking into consideration that I have a diagnosed anxiety disorder… Read more

  • How Winter deceived me – or did it actually…?

    I can remember the times when I used to blame everything on anybody or everything that felt fit to be standing in my way of success: I blamed my job and the injustice inflicted to me by others, so I had a reason to drink. I blamed my bad mood on my wife and kids,… Read more

  • What Goals do I still need to pursue? Is it really goals?

    This is the second half of the two part post I started yesterday. And today I’d like to tackle the question, goal or way? Meaning: Is/are there final goals I should achieve in the end? Or is it more about the way I need to go along and learn en route? This is not so… Read more

  • After half a year of cutting back and sobriety – Am I bulletproof yet?

    The longer I work on my sobriety, the more loose ends come up of which I sometimes have the feeling that it all is either too much to work on, or that it is too much I think I need to do to have a successful recovery. But is all that really necessary? A two… Read more

  • Being strict with sobriety but not with other addictive behaviour

    Something that has been on my mind for a while now is the question why it seems to be no bigger issue for me to deal with other habit loops and/or addictive behavior in a moderate and sensible way while with alcohol I can’t. I won’t get into too much detail for toxic habits and/or… Read more

  • The advantages of being a nerd – tapping into the power of journaling TTRPG*

    Yes, I admit it, I am a nerd. Have always been, may always be. I won’t discuss the up- and downsides of being a nerd here, that is a different issue. But one advantageous aspect is knowing about the power of RPG (role playing games). Why? Well, gaming, and particularly role playing (not in the… Read more

  • Toxic Self optimization – why it contributes to bad self esteem

    It seems I am coming back to a lot of aspects I touched upon before. I am sorry if that feels erratic, but I feel the need to share my reflection on toxic self optimization once again. All the good advice and lifestyle books come with very good ideas, but they come with a couple… Read more

  • Impatience, impulse control and premature decisions

    Ever since leaving the Pink Cloud, one thing has become a very imminent issue on my recovery journey, and that concerns the question of decision making in relation to my self efficacy and self esteem. While it is in a way a good thing to have a certain motivation and willpower to complete tasks, preferably… Read more

  • Music and the Savage Drooling Beast – Or so…

    Here goes the drooling dog again. Let’s speak a little bit about conditioning ourselves and using the power of reframing music for the good cause. To be less cryptic: I talked about the effect of music on my emotional state. That is nothing new and, in itself, there is nothing to add to. But what… Read more