Yeh. It’s funny how things coincide. CH – Cosmic Horror, CH – Clear Horizon. Funny. *Snort*.

Ok, let’s be serious again. There are, in my way of seeing it, a few very significant parallels between “my” Clear Horizon and my reading of Cosmic Horror.

First of all: There is no end to it in both cases: You will never reach the horizon. I dealt with it before and that the way to the clear horizon is the goal. And since it is a long trail (remember, at least 10 years to settle in sobriety, and even then it is a thing that will be with me until the end of my days. If that’s not a Cosmic Horror – ish prospect, I don’t know what is 😱 – ok, well that might be an overexaggeration, but I think you know what I mean ;). And yes, the parallel is of course that there is no end to the Cosmos – and of course to Cosmic Horror as well.

The second parallel is (and that might be something really closely related to the first parallel) the humongous possibilities, ways, connections, constructions and expanse of either the ways to reach the Clear Horizon or the universe and the imaginative possibilities with unspeakable horrors.

The third parallel, and that is probably the most important aspect, is tap into the possibilities of both concepts to wield the power of imagination, with nearly infinity possibilities. It’s a sandbox at my finger tips and I can make use of it the way I want it. And that is making it so interesting, especially with my ADHD. I don’t think I need to explain what it means to have nearly endless resources of two concepts where my imagination can run freely and give me gleeful chills when combining personal subconscious rabbit holes with the unspeakable horrors of a malignant universe: The reward is simply stunning and I can deal with it whenever I want. I can tap into it, whenever it feels fit and in this way I think I have found the bridge to overcome the gap between things I need to do and things that push me into a hyperlocal state. It’s yet still something to work out precisely, but here the concept of letting all aspects of reality confront me and then picking what I want and need to reshape it to my will is very helpful.

Now, once again, why I chose Cosmic Horror as a means to work things out. It is a concept that has accompanied me nearly all my life, at least starting with my adolescence, i.e. the time when puberty hits hardest and orientation is very hard to find. It’s like the use of music to get me into a positive emotional state. And using the Universe of Cosmic Horror to let it seep into my voyages towards the Clear Horizon is like tapping into emotions connected to positive memories and reconfiguring them with music is very powerful.

This is why it’s not only a digression of a flight into strange worlds (of course it is, too, but not only), but a means to playfully dive into memories, experience and challenges old and new to work myself through the stormy night that is shaking my system – mobile (cf. post: “My life is like a mobile”)

Until next time: Keep up the faith in yourself and take one step at a time.