The Clear Horizon

From oblivion of alcoholism into the light of sobriety

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  • Why all the Disorder Talk – FindIng my Core

    Why am I focusing so much on anxiety, a possible ADHD or depression although this is about quitting and recovery? Exactly because of that. The more I deep dive into my own recovery and the more the Pink Cloud fades (something I will surely post upon later), the more I get to discover more and… Read more

  • How parents influence your alcoholism – habits, belief, mindset, Education

    I am no Freudian psychoanalyst and I am not a therapist, as I said before. But I think I can identify strong relations between my drinking habits and the way of my socialization in my family. That is of course nothing new, but this insight came so strongly to me after meeting my parents after… Read more

  • Why it gets easier with the Right mindset

    Interestingly, I have saved a post draft with his headline for a completely different topic weeks ago. That nicely shows me after a longer time of dealing with different topics, how processes, ideas and, yes, mindsets change. It is easier with the right mindset. Now, I will use this post to get into two aspects:… Read more

  • Externalising, “I” – Statements and booze – How “manly” habits contributed to my psychic disorders

    “If that stupid colleague hadn’t squealed to the boss, things wouldn’t have just worked out fine and the job would have still been there”, he said, then taking a large draft from his beer. What does this short message (which is made up), tell us? What is so wrong with these forms of dealing with… Read more

  • Social Media and alcohol

    Sometimes ideas or conclusions or insights strike like lightning or appear a long time afterwards. I want to share one I had today about my own relationship with social media and alcohol consumption. I don’t mean an abusive way of consuming social media after quitting drinking, in which I compensated for my alcohol consumption with… Read more

  • Am I Re-Nerd-Ing? – Why Reading, Gaming and Podcasts become relevant

    When have I returned to reading, listening to podcasts and gaming? It wasn’t in the same moment I stopped drinking. It started when I realized that replacing my drinking habits with hanging out on social media too much. I realized that falling for filter bubbles and fake news aggravated passive aggressiveness and depression. How did… Read more

  • Alcohol or activity – What defines your Masculintiy?

    James Clear writes that you should build habits to define your identity to keep up the habitual routine. The argument goes: If you identify with your habits, the habits become you or at least help shaping your identity. If working is a big part of your identity (which is normal if you are belonging to… Read more

  • Why I hate the winter time – and how to deal with it

    Sometimes it just strikes you down from behind like a thug with a log. From one day to the next, all the decisions you made, all the new habits accumulated, all the good things that have happened to me seem like dust in the wind. Then something like a depression pushes you down, aggravated by… Read more

  • Proactive vs reactive. How a prefix determines your fate

    An interesting aspect of addiction and depression or anxiety disorders has (at least from my point of view) a lot to do with your own initiative. What do I mean with that? In various blogposts, coaching contributions and podcasts, as well as as in my own work and my own addiction, there is one common… Read more

  • Midlife Crisis or Catharsis?

    Do I sound melodramatic? Maybe. But that is how most of the time you’ll feel when in a remorseful state you can’t escape if you want to quit drinking but can’t muster the strength to escape the loop of triggers, cravings, giving in to cravings and then swearing to never drink again just to find… Read more