The Clear Horizon

From oblivion of alcoholism into the light of sobriety

anxiety

  • Defeating self expectations, or self defeating expectations?

    Here we go again. Seeing the logo of my podcast host service alone pushes up stress levels. Why is that so? Well, it’s all about motivation and in turn over exaggerated expectations generated by it. The problem arising is a recurring pattern in ADHD, enough to make a Cosmic Horror short story out of (and… Read more

  • COVID and Alcohol – what boredom has to do with drinking

    It wasn’t the stress that made me drink more than before in the COVID – era. This is an interesting insight, because I always thought that I had a very stressful time during COVID. Yes, it was stressful. I had a lot of remote home schooling, I had shifts of emergency childcare at the school… Read more

  • extreme choices, extreme emotions – how to cope without a single drop of rum?

    Sometimes it’s hard to determine (in terms of heartfelt instances) if living in extremes was there before alcohol or the other way around: When I quit drinking, my hope was, a bit, to leave the life of dichotomous choices or emotional spikes and dips, a life of black-and-white thinking, whatever you may want to call… Read more

  • I asked AI to help with ADHD – here’s what happened – Reframing project pt. 2

    Yes, this may induce a wave of rants to hear I use AI as means of therapying my ADHD, but I must say the results seem to yield some interesting results. I don’t think everything AI gives for an answer is feasible or even sensible, it is more a structure to help me along the… Read more

  • Effectively utilizing ADHD – can I make a powerful weapon out of Hyperfocus and the RAS?

    I have now been diagnosed with ADHD for a week, and yesterday was the definite and final diagnosis result interview. If I am going into medication, more coaching, psycho education or whatever it will be, I don’t know as of now. But I know one thing for sure: I will be trying to find different… Read more

  • It’s official – I have ADHD. Is this a reason to cry or to celebrate?

    There are some situations in your life you long for to have clarity about, and then, when it happens, you are not quite sure what to make out of it. Make no mistake, I am really relieved to have finally a factual diagnosis. I only thought it would be clearer to me if it gave… Read more

  • Meatless March – when good intentions get (probably) too much… Evaluating cognitive distortion

    What is cognitive distortion, to clarify things unknown first? To quote Wikipedia: “A cognitive distortion is a thought that causes a person to perceive reality inaccurately due to being exaggerated or irrational. Cognitive distortions are involved in the onset or perpetuation of psychopathological states, such as depression and anxiety.” Depression? – Check, Anxiety? – Check. Ok. So, what is this post about?… Read more

  • The feelgood implications of Nostalgia and Drooling

    There might be a feeling arising that there is some dissonance in the picture or the imagination, that a drooling dog and a man indulging in old memories may have to do something with improving my mental health, but even though the poles may be very far apart, they have something in common. They bridge… Read more

  • Insights of hands free February, pt 2

    The fading of the Pink Cloud and the time I am getting from my handsfree time comes with a couple of ups and downs, but essentially this is about diving deeper into the rabbit hole of Recovery. What do I mean with the ups? Well, a very important development right now are the insights I… Read more

  • Catastrophising – why depression and alcohol can lead into a Vicious Circle.

    Ok, it is no big news that alcohol is a depressant and leaves you in a depressive state after the dopamine has dropped into the void. Alcohol abuse can lead to depression, depression can lead to alcohol abuse. No big news either. Catastrophising is something that can cause a vicious circle, where alcohol and depression… Read more