The Clear Horizon

From oblivion of alcoholism into the light of sobriety

recovery

  • It’s official – I have ADHD. Is this a reason to cry or to celebrate?

    There are some situations in your life you long for to have clarity about, and then, when it happens, you are not quite sure what to make out of it. Make no mistake, I am really relieved to have finally a factual diagnosis. I only thought it would be clearer to me if it gave… Read more

  • Horror films and Horror rpg deep dive

    This is something a couple of people in my environment find awkward, puzzling or disturbing that I have such a big issue with horror films and horror games. My wife always asks me how I can actually watch so many horror films without cracking up, taking into consideration that I have a diagnosed anxiety disorder… Read more

  • What Goals do I still need to pursue? Is it really goals?

    This is the second half of the two part post I started yesterday. And today I’d like to tackle the question, goal or way? Meaning: Is/are there final goals I should achieve in the end? Or is it more about the way I need to go along and learn en route? This is not so… Read more

  • After half a year of cutting back and sobriety – Am I bulletproof yet?

    The longer I work on my sobriety, the more loose ends come up of which I sometimes have the feeling that it all is either too much to work on, or that it is too much I think I need to do to have a successful recovery. But is all that really necessary? A two… Read more

  • Being strict with sobriety but not with other addictive behaviour

    Something that has been on my mind for a while now is the question why it seems to be no bigger issue for me to deal with other habit loops and/or addictive behavior in a moderate and sensible way while with alcohol I can’t. I won’t get into too much detail for toxic habits and/or… Read more

  • The advantages of being a nerd – tapping into the power of journaling TTRPG*

    Yes, I admit it, I am a nerd. Have always been, may always be. I won’t discuss the up- and downsides of being a nerd here, that is a different issue. But one advantageous aspect is knowing about the power of RPG (role playing games). Why? Well, gaming, and particularly role playing (not in the… Read more

  • Impatience, impulse control and premature decisions

    Ever since leaving the Pink Cloud, one thing has become a very imminent issue on my recovery journey, and that concerns the question of decision making in relation to my self efficacy and self esteem. While it is in a way a good thing to have a certain motivation and willpower to complete tasks, preferably… Read more

  • Why sobriety engagement is meaningful

    My first thought was: Great, I have enough time to redirect my energy I used with drinking into something useful: Let’s find an engagement to fill the gap. Well, yes. Partly true, but only partly. In the time of the Pink Cloud, that felt pretty straightforward and it had the shine of something to dive… Read more

  • Art therapy against aggression and procrastination

    There are a lot of things that have crossed my mind since I have reduced or respectively omitted digital devices when I decided to go for a Handsfree February. I wondered in the beginning of the month what I would do with the spare time. It was a bit different when I stopped drinking, because… Read more

  • Redundancies, repetitions and contradictions

    In the course of time, there may be certain posts or passages that seem to be very much not in line with the rest of my thoughts and insights. Well, as I wrote before, these are complex times along the way to recovery. And since I am on the way deeper and deeper into the… Read more