The Clear Horizon

From oblivion of alcoholism into the light of sobriety

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  • Why all the Disorder Talk – FindIng my Core

    Why am I focusing so much on anxiety, a possible ADHD or depression although this is about quitting and recovery? Exactly because of that. The more I deep dive into my own recovery and the more the Pink Cloud fades (something I will surely post upon later), the more I get to discover more and… Read more

  • Family, ADHD and Alcohol

    I wrote about family, I wrote about habits, I wrote about ADHD. But how does this impact my current state of mind regarding my journey to sobriety? Well, Today I am lying sick on my couch, not being able to do my sports or other activity that normally would regulate my mood and hormone levels… Read more

  • How parents influence your alcoholism – habits, belief, mindset, Education

    I am no Freudian psychoanalyst and I am not a therapist, as I said before. But I think I can identify strong relations between my drinking habits and the way of my socialization in my family. That is of course nothing new, but this insight came so strongly to me after meeting my parents after… Read more

  • Externalising, “I” – Statements and booze – How “manly” habits contributed to my psychic disorders

    “If that stupid colleague hadn’t squealed to the boss, things wouldn’t have just worked out fine and the job would have still been there”, he said, then taking a large draft from his beer. What does this short message (which is made up), tell us? What is so wrong with these forms of dealing with… Read more

  • Surfing the emotional Wave – But where to start?

    It’s just one of these evenings on which I used to have a drink after work: Stressful appointments, traffic jams, frustrating weather, dark when coming home. The catch: I don’t drink anymore. So, the gloomy and depressive emotions come, and if you don’t have anything to distract you from them, or you don’t want distraction,… Read more

  • Social Media and alcohol

    Sometimes ideas or conclusions or insights strike like lightning or appear a long time afterwards. I want to share one I had today about my own relationship with social media and alcohol consumption. I don’t mean an abusive way of consuming social media after quitting drinking, in which I compensated for my alcohol consumption with… Read more

  • Am I Re-Nerd-Ing? – Why Reading, Gaming and Podcasts become relevant

    When have I returned to reading, listening to podcasts and gaming? It wasn’t in the same moment I stopped drinking. It started when I realized that replacing my drinking habits with hanging out on social media too much. I realized that falling for filter bubbles and fake news aggravated passive aggressiveness and depression. How did… Read more

  • Job Identity and Drinking

    When you are so used to drinking after hours it can be hard getting into the workflow after vacation without booze. Let me explain. Daniel Schreiber, a German journalist and author, wrote that we pursue rather a “work – and – drinking” – balance instead of a “work – life” – balance. I don’t think… Read more

  • Normalising sobriety

    I am in good hope to having reached a new state of sobriety and in this state studying my feeling of getting resistent to alcohol temptations: By New Year’s Eve, I realised that something severely interesting had happened to the way I was watching alcohol. When I attended the Holiday Party of my company or… Read more

  • The Great New Year’s Cleanup

    Do I need new New year’s resolution or a renewal of good intentions? And (either way), how sincere are these intentions? I, for my part, have come to the conclusion this year that I do not need new resolutions, because to me it feels like restarting the same old sh*t all over again. It feels… Read more