The Clear Horizon

From oblivion of alcoholism into the light of sobriety

depression

  • How Winter deceived me – or did it actually…?

    I can remember the times when I used to blame everything on anybody or everything that felt fit to be standing in my way of success: I blamed my job and the injustice inflicted to me by others, so I had a reason to drink. I blamed my bad mood on my wife and kids,… Read more

  • The feelgood implications of Nostalgia and Drooling

    There might be a feeling arising that there is some dissonance in the picture or the imagination, that a drooling dog and a man indulging in old memories may have to do something with improving my mental health, but even though the poles may be very far apart, they have something in common. They bridge… Read more

  • Insights of hands free February, pt 2

    The fading of the Pink Cloud and the time I am getting from my handsfree time comes with a couple of ups and downs, but essentially this is about diving deeper into the rabbit hole of Recovery. What do I mean with the ups? Well, a very important development right now are the insights I… Read more

  • Substance abuse killed The Rock Star? – it’s the disorder, stupid! Or is it…?

    TRIGGER WARNING: The issue of siucide or suicidal tendencies is touched upon! Recently I heard something interesting about the Club 27 and the conversation lingered around the question if it was the substance that killed Amy Winehouse or that she simply couldn’t cope with the fame, so she spiraled down her vicious circle into oblivion.… Read more

  • Helping those in need when I was in need myself

    How was I able to help people in need, regarding disorders, family problems, domestic violence and substance abuse while I needed help myself getting off alcohol? I have been working in a social and education job all my job life. It alway was, s, in one or the other way, related to helping or supporting… Read more

  • Catastrophising – why depression and alcohol can lead into a Vicious Circle.

    Ok, it is no big news that alcohol is a depressant and leaves you in a depressive state after the dopamine has dropped into the void. Alcohol abuse can lead to depression, depression can lead to alcohol abuse. No big news either. Catastrophising is something that can cause a vicious circle, where alcohol and depression… Read more

  • Why all the Disorder Talk – FindIng my Core

    Why am I focusing so much on anxiety, a possible ADHD or depression although this is about quitting and recovery? Exactly because of that. The more I deep dive into my own recovery and the more the Pink Cloud fades (something I will surely post upon later), the more I get to discover more and… Read more

  • Why I hate the winter time – and how to deal with it

    Sometimes it just strikes you down from behind like a thug with a log. From one day to the next, all the decisions you made, all the new habits accumulated, all the good things that have happened to me seem like dust in the wind. Then something like a depression pushes you down, aggravated by… Read more